Do you ever feel like you have huge bricks attatched at your ankles, and you just drag them along everywhere you are going? And you need to keep up the pace, even though you have 100 lbs of concrete attatched to you? Yeah. That's how I am feeling this week. That something simple, like walking, is incredibly challenging.  I cant relax. My Yoga teacher explains to our class every single week that relaxation is a skill, and it is a process. She also says that after we recognize that relaxing is difficult, are rare, that acception of this is the next step. But, I don't want to accept this. I want to be able to let go of the bricks, and be able to function!! ( Is that so much to ask?)

I look like Sweeny Todd ( never a good sign)- crazy hair, big dark circles under my eyes....the works.
Im exhausted. Im sick. I am sleep deprived. Even when I am sleeping, and I have REM sleep, my dreams are just as active and stressful as my daily life.

So, what do we do when it seems you can't slow down...? Like one of those bad western movies where the train wont stop and is about to go off a giant cliff! .....I have no idea. But if any of you know, please, feel free to shout it out.

If I wasnt so stressed and busy, what would I be doing with my time, you ask?
Well, for starters, I would start a ton of extra-credit projects.
Secondly, I would spend some quality bonding time with my horn and keyboard.
And, thirdly, I would take a bubble bath, listen to Mozart, and day dream of Europe.

<-------- Me.